I’m in a train waiting for it to bring me to work. Not a second goes by when part of my brain isn’t thinking about my back. How I’m sitting, how long until I should stand again. How often I should stretch and how to train the weak muscles who should be doing more than they are. (Hence the back-issues.)
It is so tireing to constantly be focused on part of my body that isn’t working as it’s supposed to. I can’t sit at a computer for too long. I have to take a lot of breaks during my workday to lie down on a yoga mat and to do excercises. It is so terribly frustrating to be limited by my own body. And then I realise that I know my problems are temporary, not everybody has that luxury. And then I shut up again.